It seemed like this is what my entire life consisted of…
My entire being drowned in sorrow.
It was my early morning commute to yet another college. Four years in and I still had no degree and no direction, just amassing more debt.
I was living in a different city with a new job but the all too familiar and deep seated unhappiness and unfulfillment that had plagued me my entire life had moved right alongside me.
It was determined to take a permanent residence in this new life that I had hoped would bring a fresh start.
I could not shake it off.
“I hate YOU!”
I yelled at the top of my lungs,
to a God I did not believe in,
but if indeed he was true,
He was responsible for my miserable life.
Why did he make me? I hated him and I hated me.
I moved to get away.
Get away from everyone who had betrayed me.
Another failure to add to my meaningless life.
I had been cheated on by a boyfriend of 3 years and betrayed by friends.
I was so stupid.
I felt so dumb.