This morning as I attempted to get into my Bible study time I found my thoughts drifting to different situations in my life. I continued reading anyways and eventually my eyes wandered completely off the page as I began to think about an upcoming trip to Washington, D.C.
The scene that played out, in my mind, while I was on the trip was anything but positive. My mind flooded with fear as I considered the worst possible outcome; I then began to devise a plan and mentally prepare for such a negative occurrence. After a few more minutes of this toxic thinking, I abruptly became mindful of the fear-ridden thoughts that gripped my heart.
In that conscious moment, I questioned out loud: why does my mind automatically go to fear? I wondered why the initial response to this unknown situation was steeped in fear,
It was definitely a rhetorical question. Not expecting an answer, I set out to continue reading the open pages of my Bible. And right there just a few words in, “you shall not experience or fear evil anymore.” (Zephaniah 3:15 The Message)
God had my attention.
I decided to relocate to a more comfortable spot in order to study it out, but first I needed to grab my eyeglasses. I couldn’t find them anywhere. As a matter of fact, I remembered that I hadn’t been able to locate them the previous night either. So there I stood and quietly asked, “where are the glasses Lord?” and just like that a thought lighted upon my mind, ‘in the robe’…
Partially doubting, I went to the robe. My hand traced the outside pocket with no indication of their whereabouts. As I dug deep into the pocket, I felt them.
In the moments following that incident, I considered…if God can answer a question about something as small and seemingly insignificant as the location of eyeglasses, surely He is able to answer the bigger and more important questions in other areas of my life, such as whether or not I need to make the trip to Washington.
I thought surely if I am seeking Him in all I do and He is guiding me, why would He lead me into a situation that would cause me great tragedy or loss when time after time, in His book, I have read and continue to read about the promises of protection, guidance, safety, well-being, and long-life in Jesus Christ.
So, if indeed I am asking and He is answering me with guidance, there is nothing to fear. His guidance should eliminate all doubts, all fears and leave me with a peace that surpasses all my understanding.
I then asked God about the trip and sensed that I cannot and should not dismiss my gut feeling (which is The Holy Spirit) and the hesitation surrounding the circumstance. I was reminded of the accumulation of unrest and lack of peace from the beginning surrounding this entire situation. And even though it doesn’t make complete sense and may even appear as though I am blowing the entire thing out of proportion, I have got to step out in faith, believing that this is my way of being lead…even at the expense of looking and feeling foolish with my decision to not make the trip.
As I continued reading, I was encouraged by the following: “The Lord your God is with you: His power gives you victory.” (Zephaniah 3:17 GNT) It is His power at work in us which casts out all fear and leads us into safe places as we follow His guidance.